Big time Faith

Is there little faith?  If there is, I've had it the last few days.  I have been a'hollerin at God like crazy.  Mad about this and that...small potatoes to the big stuff.  By big stuff, I mean HUGE stuff like badly injured friends who are good people and shouldn't be in the way of terrorists...but I digress.  Is there little faith?  Sometimes my faith feels small.  Tiny, speck of sand, small.  I have had a lot of people write to me since I started this blog.  They say "your faith is so strong" or "you are so lucky to have a faith like your's"....um, maybe I am not writing this the way I think I am.  I STRUGGLE every.  single.  day.  with my faith.  I WANT to do what God wants and sometimes it's like a diet...I think, just this once it's ok if I have this ridiculous thought 1,000 times today and then turn to keep my face towards the truth...later.  Sometimes I am confused by the truth.  Is the truth what I feel in earnest or has it not a thing to do with how I feel but what I need to believe in order to keep keepin' on?  I think it's obvious that the TRUTH...is what He says it is.  It is a promise and salvation like no other.  I have made promises I haven't kept.  Everyone has.  I think.  Like I previously wrote, someone has always done something worse, so if you've never broken a promise, I'm your gal.  I did the something worse.  I have broken promises.  God.  Doesn't.  Break.  Promises.  Wow.

NIV

John 14:27

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

It's time for the big time faith.  For my heart, for my mind, for my wee girlies...I've been a tad plagued by some  heavy thoughts for the past week and it's time to curb the ridiculousness.  Now that the house is clean, the laundry is finished, the meals are prepared, the kids are ready, and...there's no backing out...and here is where I stopped writing last night, Monday...and am picking up, today, Tuesday, before heading off into the unknown...so now the oven is also clean.  HA!  Really though, it's time for the game face.  This is such small potatoes and I am going to have to get my head straight so I don't let my wimpy side take over.  Such. Small. Potatoes.  God gave me some perspective this weekend.  I am extremely sure that people in convoys don't get injured because I need to chill out, but it really gave me the chance to stop thinking about myself and focus on someone else.  Now we move on.  Comfy clothes, check, Netflix movies, check, two new books thanks to Katie and Mom, check, BTF, check!  Now if only that Big Time Faith came with breakfast, I'd be one happy girl.  Who needs breakfast when you've got Jesus?  (Though, I do love me some eggs benedict...)
Catch ya later.  xoxo